Guys I went backwards and I need a bit of advice

Guys I went backwards and I need a bit of adviceSo during my high school years I discovered my love for fitness. By the time I'd turned 16 my weight had gone from 265 to 170. From there I was able to get my weight back up to around 230 From lifting heavy and eating clean. Unfortunatly the late teens and early 20s are when mental illness chooses to rear its ugly head. I spiraled down into depression/anxiety/and all of the other problems that come with it. At this point in my life is when I genuinly began to realize how terrible depression is. Even though I was constantly working out, eating healthy, having a solid job, going to school, having a loving family, and being "happy" with life the sense of darkness and dread was just impossible to bear. I went from being able to do pull ups with 50lbs around my waist to barley being able to pump out 8 or 10. My fastest mile time was 6:05 and now I'm sure I'd feel like dieing after running a 9 min mile. Luckily I have The world's most amazing doctor who was able to asses that there is something wrong with the way my brain was working. Lack of serotonin is a bitch. I was able to get on a anti depressant with The only drawback being... Well a lack of a libido, and to be honest it's not that big of a deal. I still like to have sex, just my mind isn't saturated with it. The point is for some reason I feel lost. The most annoying thing about all of this is Even though I'm able to step back and objectively look at everything, it just feels like a huge wall is preventing me from taking the last step to getting back into my uber fitness lifestyle. I just don't know how to get back into it. I'm afraid I'll set goals that I'm unable to attain and discourage myself. All I'm looking for is anyone else who's been through something similar and can maybe pass me some wisdom. I don't want to go through life like everyone else. I want to be healthy and fit and strong. TL;DR: Depression sucks. Help. submitted by /u/sodamethod [link] [comments]

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