Long story short..I put back on between 20-30lbs in the last year that I had worked so hard to get rid of. I have been so pissed off, moody, and have lacked any sort of confidence in myself for the last couple of months. I am so mad. SOOO MAD! I've been taking my anger out on everyone I love, because I can't get my shit together. I'm in a relationship with a man I can't trust, and it eats away at me, and I eat ALL the junk food in my house to console my stupid feelings. Today was kind of usual, except after fighting with the bf, I went home, put my running gear on, and set off in a mad sprint. I forgot how weightless you can feel when you run your ass off while listening to some Limp Bizket. Once I got tired (this happened quickly) I started sobbing. I seriously mean sobbing. I think I scared a child. I just can't believe I stopped caring about my health because of other distractions. I can't believe how I haven't made the decision to break it off with my boyfriend already. I REALLY couldn't even bare the fact that I got winded so damn quickly, even when my mind was telling me to keep damn moving until I passed out, but my body was telling me to stop.
I ran/walked another 3 miles after that; maaaaybe cried a little more. I'm ready for some big changes. I don't think I'll be able to do it without this subreddit's help once again. I'll be lurking here every day 😁
Tl;dr: fat girl ran, cried, and is ready to be confident in her body once again.
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